Panic Monday

Uncategorized May 01, 2020

 This morning I am actively waging war to dethrone worry. Financial uncertainties have hit many of us no doubt and our home is neither exempt nor excluded. I hate waking up like this - with the startling realization that nothing is certain for any of us.

I hate it when worry creeps up my spine and rudely slithers in uninvited and unannounced. I hate when I watch the numbers in our bank account steadily decrease and the frailty of my faith now glares at me; when all the words I preached in my very eloquent messages, abruptly return examining my every thought and I am faced with these two-sided options: Sink or swim, confess or retreat, believe or doubt.

I found the above image on Unsplash. Obviously, it's not a picture of me. But it might as well be. I confess that even as I write, I am fighting the temptation to believe my own accusations against our Lord: "Oh my! You have let me waste my time and my life?!" "What foolish choices I have made". Only to be reminded of Luke...

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This Glorious Palm Sunday

Uncategorized Apr 05, 2020

This morning as our family engaged in our devotions, I experienced tremendous joy in my inner man! I was reminded afresh of the assurance of God’s glorious promises. These past few weeks have been precious times in the Thomas home. Not easy, but priceless. Having time to connect as a family and with God simply to seek His face, has been beautiful.  This morning, however, His presence and the reality of what awaits we who believe in Him, touched me in a surprising way.

 The kids don’t necessarily sit still during the morning devotions, so it is quite difficult to engage my own heart at times. But as my husband read through the story of Jesus riding into His city on that donkey, I was truly struck with wonder at the fulfillment of God’s powerful plan through His son’s triumphant entry and on a donkey none-the-less. God the ever-wise poet, uses this beast of burden, to carry His burden-bearing son, who surely sorrowed with great joy at the coming...

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Bread and Wine

The world is full of smart people, really really smart people, but so very few wise ones. Several years ago that became apparent to me. Yet another cycle of terrible choices followed by more terrible choices made it evident that despite my intelligence, I was the 2 Timothy 3:5-7 woman; always learning, yet never coming to the knowledge of the truth. 

Maybe you can relate. I knew my choices to be destructive and unhelpful but I simply could not stop! Looking back now, my actions were senseless and reckless and only lead to a horrific spiritual death and destruction. I was committing spiritual and intellectual suicide.

I had committed to attending every prayer and deliverance meeting this side of the Mississippi. I had decided I needed to answer yet again, every altar call. Yet try as I did, I left each meeting equally as weighed down and often bewildered. 

One early Wednesday morning, I drug myself into a prayer meeting and I opened up to the book of Proverbs. My...

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Wading Through Disappointment

Uncategorized Sep 11, 2019

Disappointment can feel so toxic. Most of us will do everything we can to avoid it. Our culture hates it. To some extent this is understandable. We are conditioned to love happy endings because, after all, the Bible ends in the happiest of endings. But Disney has capitalized on our God-given yearning for pleasure and in our sinful beings, we have feasted on a steady diet of no sorrow or discomfort. Comfort, rest, and self-care are the rule of the day; thus, when reality and expectation clash, the smokescreen blows away and the utter commotion within our souls is exposed. Nothing is more revealing of past pains than new seasons of dashed dreams

It is at this junction many of us get stuck in hopelessness. Now there are varying degrees of disappointments, but I truly believe that these can be helpful, if practiced daily, to transform our perspectives. They can help you get unstuck, and back on the pilgrimage with joy.

1. Disappointment can be great for chats with God.

I am afraid,...
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Who's With Me?

who's with me? Sep 11, 2019

I couldn’t sleep yet again—my mind and body writhing with anxiety and loneliness. I am no stranger to either. I was never fully conscious of how often it was present. But now that I am aware, I wield the same weapon as when I battle through depression—the Word of God. It is my mantra. Yes, my incantation. Here the spirit reminds me all that He has ever told me about Jesus and I am renewed. It’s almost as if my head is being pulled out of the sand and I gasp for air and the tightness in my chest loosens up. You know the feeling you get after you have been underwater holding your breath too long and you are striving to reach the surface? Well for me, the Word is that first inhalation I take when reaching the "top". Nothing will ever compare to it. 

This particular evening, the spiritual hypoxia was causing my chest to cave in. So I swam to the surface as quickly as could be, searching my mind for a verse that was familiar. I needed that tightness to...

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Irresistibly Intelligent Fools

 In case you haven’t noticed, good parenting is the latest trend. And as all trends go they must be observed. But I recently had to put an end to my obsessive searches for and skimming through various Instagram stories and blogs. Like a madwoman, I would scroll on my phone, through the stories of the newest and hippest Instagram influencers with the ‘clearest’ voices on parenting with the right picture-perfect hipster images. Cringe! My social media binge usually left me either with a gut-wrenching sense of defeat since I had obviously just failed at the newly posted parenting cue or a piercing grotesque sense of pride that said “You only just now figured this out?! Honey, I knew that a decade ago.”

 

Admit it. You too have joined me and so many others in chasing down the newest method, the latest scientific discovery, the best and ‘rightest’ approach with that key phrasing and pertinent mom —dad— tone. Please...

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