Bread and Wine
The world is full of smart people, really really smart people, but so very few wise ones. Several years ago that became apparent to me. Yet another cycle of terrible choices followed by more terrible choices made it evident that despite my intelligence, I was the 2 Timothy 3:5-7 woman; always learning, yet never coming to the knowledge of the truth.
Maybe you can relate. I knew my choices to be destructive and unhelpful but I simply could not stop! Looking back now, my actions were senseless and reckless and only lead to a horrific spiritual death and destruction. I was committing spiritual and intellectual suicide.
I had committed to attending every prayer and deliverance meeting this side of the Mississippi. I had decided I needed to answer yet again, every altar call. Yet try as I did, I left each meeting equally as weighed down and often bewildered.
One early Wednesday morning, I drug myself into a prayer meeting and I opened up to the book of Proverbs. My desire was weak, my words were feeble, my heart divided and yet my sighs must have reached His ears. I naturally turned to the book of Wisdom in my need for wisdom, as one would go to the bakers in need of bread it felt natural. A few faint whispers were exhaled and they served as a dialogue with the Lord, and I soon found myself staring at Proverbs 9:4-6 which reads:
“Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!”
To him who lacks sense she says,
5 “Come, eat of my bread
and drink of the wine I have mixed.
6 Leave your simple ways, and live,
and walk in the way of insight.”
I sat in silence and thought, "I should take communion for 30 days and pray for understanding."
That day I jumped in and have not wanted to come up for air since. I would be lying if I told you that I had not. For it was not an instant change! But that day, I received something that was supernatural. I received a measure of the reverence of the Lord.
The fear and reverence of God What a delight to my soul that season was. I am continually bearing fruit from those days. In that 30 day stretch, I sought His face and two things became apparent to me.
1. He rewards those who diligently seek him
2. His reward is the unveiling of Himself to those who ask.
The Spirit made something known to my spirit. It was ethereal, yet tangible to my being! My mind was washed, given grace to thinkg differently. Reverence turned into a wise way in which I began to approached relationships. Romantic ones, platonic ones and parental ones. I no longer began my relationships with people based on how they added value to my life, but for how I could add value to their life. I was not perfect by any means, but I had gained an internal compass that pokes at me when my intentions are impure, my thinking is off. I was learning to live no longer as one condemned, but under the influence of Holy Spirits', I became aware when I was living sub-human, like my old man.
The bread, the wine, the flesh, and the blood, Christ and His sacrifice afforded a supernatural truth that I attained supernaturally; by grace through faith.
We live in the age of information, the more you know and you know what to do with what you know, the greatest access you have to power and wealth. But few spend time cultivating the knowledge of God, which is needed to be more than powerful and popular. It is needed to live as image-bearers, as sons and daughters. What are you chasing in this season of your life to fill the void, to have an impact? Is it information or the knowledge of God?
Have you begun to chase your own wants and pursue the gaining of the wealth of the world, and lost yourself and the gift of eternal life in the process. Seek Him while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near.
